September was an absolutely amazing month - FROM THE BEGINNING TO END. I began by traveling down to Savannah to visit my niece. It felt so good to see her flourishing on her own. I kept thinking about the first day I met her – back when she was a 6th grader and I was a 1st year counselor. And now? She’s my kid. Just…wow.
I still don’t know what the universe has in store for me regarding my own biological children, but I can never deny that me and Lil’ Bit are a family. Our roots run deep… LIKE A GIANT TREE.
One of the things that I did while I was there was spend the night literally on the beach. People always think it’s dangerous (and just out and out nuts) that I love to do this, but there’s something about being so close to the water, falling asleep to the sound of the waves crashing that soothes my spirit. I dreamt about the SHEDDING process that I was moving thru, similar to the one that I had 3 years ago.
After leaving, the anticipation of the rest of the month had my spirit moving like an ANTHONY HAMILTON SONG. I got back to my house, looked around and realized that NOTHING CHANGES – UNLESS SOMETHING MOVES. So I started the process of cleaning out and rearranging my house. I began w/ my bedroom – taking out EVERYTHING.
I wanted an entirely fresh start. I had already been preparing myself spiritually, but the gutting of my bedroom was like a tangible expression of the new and open feeling that had been growing my heart. August/September marked my “official” re-entry into the world of dating. The excitement that came from sitting on the bench for the last few years, not really allowing myself to feel – had me bouncing up and down silently screaming PUT ME IN THE GAME COACH!!
Over the last few months, my friends and I have had several conversations about the type of relationship that I want, characteristics of a mate that would keep my attention after the superficial BS fades and when will I “know”. The one thing that I maintain is that I will never settle for anything less than what I notice everytime I observe the subtle body language of BARACK AND MICHELLE (not the POTUS and FLOTUS…I’m talking about the Man and Woman beyond the title)…and that’s THEIR LOOK - the one that everyone can see but belongs only to the two of them. It’s a non-negotiable for me.
It represents the totality of what a relationship should be – mutual respect, support, love, passion and admiration. I’m 100% confident that with the right MAKE ME BELIEVER ….one who MUST LOVE DOGS ( 
) I’ll share it too. Sounds simple and corny, but that’s when I’ll ‘know’.
After a brief PAUSE FOR THE CAUSE to bask in the Rattler Love for the FAMU/TSU CLASSIC, I took some time out to go BEHIND THE MUSIC with myself. I know that for the most part, I am as emotionally consistent FROM SUNRISE TO SUNSET. But as I update my YOU LIVE, YOU LEARN list, I realize that when I’m off – it’s never really about anything other me feeling off balance.
At my church, our spiritual faculty for the month of September concentrated on ORDER. Although it wasn’t necessarily planned, I truly feel I spent a lot of September getting my spirit back in order. October’s spiritual focus is ZEAL…as if I needed any excuse to enthusiastically continue LIVING, LOVING and LAUGHING. Can’t wait to see what this month brings!
*had to leave out/rearrange some entries because I wrote a helluva lot more this month than I realized. I guess I’m back in the groove, huh?
