Sojourner's Truth

~January 2009: The Birth of SoJo~

so·journ [n. soh-jurn; v. soh-jurn, soh-jurn]
–noun
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
–verb (used without object)
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.

My name is Sojourner and this is my truth. I have always been a person that describes herself as someone on a never-ending journey to self-awareness – never a person to remain stagnant – but who.am.I?

so·journ [n. soh-jurn; v. soh-jurn, soh-jurn]
–noun
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
–verb (used without object)
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.

“Truth” be told, I’m clueless. That’s why I’m here. Trying to find myself – in the privacy of my own cyber-world. Public enough to satisfy my narcism. Private enough to satisfy my craving for solitude.

so·journ [n. soh-jurn; v. soh-jurn, soh-jurn]
–noun
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
–verb (used without object)
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.

Hopefully, this state of mind is temporary – as temporary as the noun “sojourn”. My name will change as my state of mind changes.

so·journ [n. soh-jurn; v. soh-jurn, soh-jurn]
–noun
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
–verb (used without object)
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.

But, who am I now? The same woman that I’ve been for the same 30+ years – someone who is comfortable staying out of the limelight, yet still craving attention. Someone who continues to be the woman that people are drawn to and love, but still feels as though her emotional well is always being drawn from and never replenished.

so·journ [n. soh-jurn; v. soh-jurn, soh-jurn]
–noun
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
–verb (used without object)
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.

I want to explore what it is about me that drives people away, yet pulls them close – so that I don’t continue to repeat the same cyles. I want something of my own – a life of my own – a love of my own. I want to KNOW that I deserve that – instead of ministering to other women.

so·journ [n. soh-jurn; v. soh-jurn, soh-jurn]
–noun
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
–verb (used without object)
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.

I want to be whole. I want, I NEED to get to my core, my center, my place of peace. My mind, my spirit has revealed it to me, but I have no idea where to go from there. So there it is, my biggest secret.

so·journ [n. soh-jurn; v. soh-jurn, soh-jurn]
–noun
1. a temporary stay: during his sojourn in Paris.
–verb (used without object)
2. to stay for a time in a place; live temporarily: to sojourn on the Riviera for two months.

The woman that appears to have it all together, is sometimes a mess. I want to be authentic. I want to discard my false bravado and expose something authentic – something REAL…a colored girl… who truly believes…who experiences…what it means to be beautiful.